Can the act of trying to fulfill your suicidal plan cause PTSD? Most of the time I just think about it. It's been 23 days. Today I noticed a big change. It's like for the first time the event seems real. I didn't notice this before. I kept going back and forth. For a day or so I would be so angry at the person who triggered & caused all of it. Then I would be blaming myself. Today it feels like I've been in a fog for the past 23 days and just woke up. So strange. And I feel so angry at that person!

I guess only a therapist can tell me if it's PTSD, but was just wondering if there're any stages to PTSD. I have a new therapist, appointment in 13 days, which seems awfully long time to wait. I can hardly wait!