Has anyone ever needed therapy because of their therapist? I have a lot of trauma because of my ex-therapist. I'm so upset with her. All I can think about is all the endless therapy sessions and her temper. I need to somehow let this go. But memories keep coming to me. Like I was just thinking about how when I'd go to her portal to make an appointment or fill in a document she's requested I could see how she didn't have that many appointments. It made me feel bad for her, but now I know why.
I used to think all of the things she said to me, belittling me, etc. was therapy technique, even though they hurt me every time, but after talking to a half dozen therapist it turns out not be a therapy technique.
There were so many huge red flags about her that other therapist have pointed out. Like, she told me she was spending 4 hours per day outside of therapy on me. That was socking, and she made guilty for it. Toward the end she started being bossy, tell me what to do, which two therapists said no therapist should ever do that. I don't want to go into all the details. All of her hateful facial expressions, and temper. I used to blame myself, but strange how I never had problems with my psychiatrist. Never, not once, and I saw her every week as well. It's sad there are bad therapist out there. One time I confronted her about her bad mood & temper. She wrote back saying I'm an "empath" and that normal people would never been able to feel that she was in a bad mood. But she admitted that she had some personal problems to deal with. I have no idea why she'd think that because her bad mood or whatever she wants to call was very noticeable.
There was one time she said something that puzzled me, but it wasn't clear. She said I *might* remind her of an ex-boyfriend. Another time she said there seems to be something between us. Another time she said "One day your girlfriend might be a psychologist." When she said that her voice quickly faded low and deep and her head went down.
Uggg, so.... I just need therapy now because of my therapist. My appointment with the new therapist is in 12 days.