The thing is, this isn't how I would normally be. If this were "real life" and someone made this kind of mistake, I would just think "oh well, everyone makes mistakes, glad there's another appointment available!" - but everything feels so much BIGGER and more meaningful in therapy.

And this has happened once before, but when he saw what he did, he crossed the other person out, put my name there, and rescheduled the other person. The fact that he didn't do that this time has me all freaked out, wondering what I've done wrong, if he doesn't like me anymore, if that other person is more important than me for some reason, etc., etc.

He has made mistakes and apologized before, but it's usually really heartfelt and I can tell he's really sorry. This time it was just a flippant "oh, oops, sorry". He didn't seem sorry at all.

I know I'm making a big deal out of "nothing"....but this hurts, and I'm sad and mad and totally confused. The thought of losing the trust I've built is so awful. I can't process the old stuff that's coming up on my own. I'm scared. What am I supposed to do with this stuff that we were just starting to process??