I think it’s good to get it all out there. You are right, the sessions aren’t meant to be about the therapist. I can see how much she meant to you, which makes me even sadder that she has let you down like this. It really doesn’t sound like you have lied or done anything wrong At all though.

My experience... I can be a bit of a nightmare client at times, when I am struggling, I have sent many emails (some horrible) at all times of the day to my T. I’ve screamed at him on the phone, threatened to kill myself, and said things I don’t want to repeat here, but still he holds space for me to be that way. And doesn’t use it against me or bring it up as a negative. He apologises or diffuses the situation and promises to face everything with me. If anything I think it has made us much closer. This is what I hope your next therapist can do for you too!