Spoke - well, video'd - with my pdoc today. Told her I'm having the damned psychotic symptoms again. She was pissy because she said she doesn't understand what "no trauma work" means. She wanted to know why I didn't ask my therapist what she meant. I don't freakin' know why I didn't ask; it didn't occur to me to question her. So pdoc made an appointment with therapist for tomorrow so I can talk to her about what exactly "trauma work" is, and that I feel abandoned, which is why I cut my appointments down from 2/week to 1/week.
I saw demons behind my pdoc, so I asked her if she's okay. It really scared me. She said she's eating a lot of good salad lately, and that she's fine. I wanted to tell her there are demons behind her, but I didn't.
I cut my appts. down because I want to see my T in her office, not in my apartment, which makes me feel creepy.
Isn't trauma work about working on trauma from childhood? Or PTSD, in general?