The main reason I initially went to see my current T was because of dealing with transference for my ex-marriage counselor. I felt my current T at the time (now ex-T) wasn't helping me enough with getting through the transference (and neither was ex-MC--though we discussed it multiple times). Then, when I had a big rupture with ex-MC, it was really helpful to have current T to process it with. There were also a few times when I had conflicts with my current T when I consulted with another T for a session or two to help me talk through it (and the consulting T was fine with that).


I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Something that current T said that really helped me is that I was going through a grief process in losing ex-MC. Thinking of it as grieving felt more normalizing. I was grieving a loss. Yes, it was about a therapist, but it was a loss of someone who meant a lot to me. I hope you can find a T to help you through it.