Almost cleaned out the meth/heroin/crack ***** house.

My veins are getting bigger it seems.

I feel safe in the hotel with a machete.

Valium.

I have philosophical thoughts about reality that most people will be having in 5-10 years.

My cognition could go to ****. I'm exhausted all the time.. As I've said, big veins. Need beta blockers.

If I had a purpose, I'd be able to focus on that but I'm an information sponge that has cognitive fatigue. I need everything around me clean to focus.

I can't be an artist can I? I want to be known for something great. I want to overcome addiction. I've been around addicts all day. I say they need to trip but no one listens. It's true.