I'm not even sure what I'm feeling anymore. I'm working hard to find a job in a global pandemic and also find a place to stay withing 1 or 2 months because I had to take my parents to live in another state where my brother and his family live, which was the saddest thing ever, and have no idea how all that's going to happen because I've been a caretaker to my elderly parents for the past 18 years so I have no job history at all. I should be stressed but it's strange I'm not. Maybe my new meds working good? Good part is I have a new therapist, appointment in 12 days and a new psychiatrist.

The psych ward found I have Hypothyroidism. Must of just happened. Had full blood work done not too long ago for first psychiatrist. I have a theory. Since it's most likely caused by autoimmune disease, which means my body is killing itself lol, I probably created this because for long time now I've been doing a lot of suicidal ideation and planning. So it's kinda of self created. Wow!....