I feel.... I just don't even know anymore.

I have one foot out the door in my marriage right now. I told my therapist yesterday that if the lack of sex continues over the next month, that I am leaving him. I am fed up with everything -- in all directions -- and my patience is wearing thin.

It just seems if it's not one stressful situation we're facing, it's another. Now his elderly parents are in trouble and haven't been able to pay their rent for the last two weeks. So my husband may need to help them financially, even though we do not have a lot of extra funds right now. HIs father was giving the hospital staff a lot of trouble, he refused to go to rehab and the nursing home where they are living are basically fed up with him.

His father has been in and out of the hospital for the last year with some new emergency health situation. This causes a LOT of stress for my husband, and subsequently, for me.

There are some days where I wonder if I would be better off and happier single. This morning is one such day.

Since we've been married, it's been one life stressor after another, and I am sick of it all. HIs job stress, then my job stress, his father's health, his parents' finances, our own finances, then the fights we've had and the issues we face in our marriage. It's just too much for me. Today, I really felt like I should divorce him. That little voice inside me was screaming at me: get out & get out now!

I also have an escapist mentality, so I really don't know what to do except muddle through these feelings until I know for certain one way or another.

If we were just dating, it would be soooo much easier. But it's a marriage and a commitment, it's a life we share together, it's a home we created together -- or really, I decorated it and bought most everything, but we share it.

I guess I am ultimately torn. That's how I feel.