NP I currently have no income. I can get work but it is low pay, low hours and high risk. What I made in an entire year (with 100% availability) last year didn’t even cover the $140/wk for therapy. Sadly my earning potential has not increased and the available jobs would put me at high risk for covid19 and a years pay would not cover my health insurance deductible. So, I squirrel away any money I can but it isn’t much.
Thanks Yoawen.
Lost, I totally agree, especially as it is very triggering for me the way it is playing out. T is a self admitted project person. He likes seeing measurable progress, likes knowing his skills are being used and seeing a tidy finish... to which I chuckle and ask why the hell he became a T unless it was to frustrate himself!
Salmon, H is a huge part of the problem. We talked and he gave me the money for T... but then forgot the car insurance was due, the payment on the vet bill for the dog, dog food and cat food and groceries for us... but made other legit important purchases but not ones with immediate need. When I asked for money for groceries he just said we’d eat out which is SO much more expensive. So... over half the money for T went to necessities.... and my phone will still likely be shut off this weekend for lack of payment. Next week we pay rent which uses 2/3+ of the income.
If I can pull myself back up leaving H is a strong consideration.