I found this a sobering read. I am sorry that money is interfering in your therapy. I know that the "you-only-care-because-I-pay-you" sentiment is hackneyed and emotive, but when I read something like this, the financial transaction is brought into focus in a painful way. Obviously, he has to maintain a salary and he runs a business. Obviously, the financial transaction is an important boundary. If I couldn't afford a haircut, my hairdresser wouldn't cut my hair and I wouldn't blame her. But, jeez when you are working with trauma and pain and delicate emotional states and people's hearts, distributing care according to wealth seems so chilling. I think I find it particularly chilling because as I understand your relationship with your therapist, it has the hallmarks of a deep and loving therapeutic relationship. Money is a horrible bedfellow.

My therapist has a very generous approach to her fee and works with me for a nominal amount. I appreciate it, but it is not without its own issues. I feel like charity, I feel special, it highlights the class distinction between us, and so on. It fosters a feeling that I am not her work and that our relationship strays into another field. Of course, this is all symbolic for the wider boundary issues we experience and her sometime suspect practice.

It seems like money and therapy are fundamentally incompatible to me. At the very least, it is not a neutral transaction.