Had a couple of bad days this week because of nightmares. I began to have nightmares last night, but I had kind of talked to myself before I went to sleep. So instead of being stuck in them, I woke up fairly quickly and though I was panicked, I calmed down faster than I would have. And it didn’t bother me today. So that’s good.
Tomorrow we are holding a very small funeral for my nana. Less than ten people, per state regulations. So it will only be immediate family. That’s better for me, no large crowd of people I don’t know (after my dad died I just kind of stopped seeing his side of the family).
RS wants to watch a movie but movies still can’t hold my attention. I’m just starting to be able to watch tv on Hulu again. I exclusively watch Seinfeld. I know there are thousands of shows out there but I prefer the known to the unknown. Friends was my jam until they took it off of Netflix. Hopefully soon as the depression continues to abate I’ll be able to get into watching movies again.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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