Woke up at 7am and went to bed at 1am the next day. 18 hours awake. I tried to sleep by taking a zopiclone but felt a bit of anxiety and completely awake, lying there for 2 hours.

I put 5mg of diazepam under my tongue and within 5 minutes, I felt my muscles relaxing. I was yawning and then within 10 minutes after taking it, I was asleep.

I feel awake the longer I stay awake yet at the same time, I can't do anything.. I just want to lie there.. No reading books or anything. And I lie down for 30-90 minutes every day and just think..

Idk wtf's wrong with me.