I'm rather sad today. My husband had open heart surgery a couple of weeks ago. I was able to stay at the hospital where he had his surgery, which was kinda good since the hospital was 2 1/2 hours from our home. It was probably the worst two weeks of my life. It was very scary to see how he reacted when he came out of anesthesia.

He is now at a hospital closer to home for therapy, as he needs to be able to stand and walk and all that before he can come home. Problem is that due to covid-19, I can't visit him. I've talked/texted him, but it's not the same. Today he told me, as he has previously, that he wants to come home. It breaks my heart when he says this as I too want him to come home, but I also know he is not ready. It's so hard to keep a positive outlook when he is so down. I try to tell him things that I hope will make him feel better, but I can't be certain that it helps. I know it doesn't help me.

The stress of this situation is wearing on me. I no longer feel exhausted, but maybe that's just because it's the weekend and I don't have to do anything. Only time will tell.