Going to be a long story so bare with me. I'm two months from being 30 and not happy at all with my life. I don't have my driver's license , no job , no husband you name it. I have a boyfriend but has to look out for his elderly mom. Long story short I was born to older parents . They were in their 30s , my mom got sick shortly after I was born . I barely remember a time she could walk well. I can remember when she could it would take hours to get groceries , or she would spend what felt like hours in the bathroom with digestive attacks. None of witch she could help. I was sheltered by my parents as well . I believe they meant well but it hasn't turned out well for me. To this day I still have trouble cutting my food up because they always did it. I have adhd, depression and anxiety. I was at least told I had ADHD to my parents when I was sent their because i kept repeating the names of body parts as a child was i told the facts of life or so my mom said . My older sister by ten years as always been abusive both mentally and physically to me. In the year 2000 everyone but me had serious health issues. The sister a brain tumor , my dad had to have two artificial hart values put in . My mom still had no idea what was wrong with her . Fast forward a few years my sister had brain surgery , dad doing well after his hart surgery. My mom finds out she has multiple sclerosis and it will continue to get worse. Years still go by and now I'm having to care for my mom at like 10 and 11, my sister is still verbally and physically abusive to me . Still years go by my sister gets pregnant , my dad isn't happy about it and they proced to argue , she stabs my dad claiming he pushed her, next she pulls his hunting gun on him, seeing this at a young age it scares me of course and I go hid it the closest. Fast forward its 2005 and my mother goes into the hospital unable to walk. She never comes back. She's now in a nursing home and will be till her death in 2015. 2017 my life goes to hell, my sister is pregnant again (she lost the other child) this time she has a healthy baby. , I date a much older man . I'm 26 by this time. He uses me , I go on a trip with a person I thought I could trust. Get sexual abused, and no one believes me because said person told me what to say to them. The only good thing that came from it was meeting my boyfriend around this time. So here I am now almost 30. What I'm angry with is why did I have to go through all this? Why did I have to become a caretaker at so young? My dad is still alive in his mid 60s and I think hes bi polar or getting demetria or something and I feel like I have to care forhim. Being mad makes me feel guilty witch in turn makes me feel depressed. I just needed to get this off my chest cause I really don't have anyone to talk to about all this. My therapy sessions only last maybe 30 min. Thank you reading my post.