I felt devastated, stupid and various other things when I admitted to myself I had been psychotic and delustion.

Which come to think of it, doesn't sound good.

However, I also thought about geing hopeful about getting help. Since I realized I had been unwell, I felt confident that I could talk about it with care providers. It was the first positivity.

Now, I still feel inadequate experience the symptoms, but I would think about how lucky I was to acknowledge the unwellness, and proud to be strong enough to get treatment. I felt like I must actually be a strong person after all, and I had positive feelings around that.

But, everyone is different and what I describe I certainly don't claim will help you.

I do feel for you though, they were hard days for me when I first accepted it.

Regards