How’s it going so I’ve been dealing with something for a while now and I’m not too sure what it is but I believe it’s untreates depression from about 2 years ago, I have a lot of stress and negative thoughts that I Dwell on, I’m constantly stressed and over thinking and I can’t seem to enjoy anything. I isolated my self gained weight and I seem to avoid conversations with people I have really bad irrabilrity and I can’t seem to concentrate or focus I find my self never preset and always in my head and not relaxed almost as if I’m thinking about thinking or trying fight my thoughts. I have very low self asteen and seen to question everything I do I really don’t know who I am anymore because I’m so tied up with my thoughts in my head. I can’t seen to do anything with out judging it and everything’s about me. I feel like I have mood swings and I compare my self to a lot of different things and situations. I have a slowed response when talking it’s almost like I think about it to hard or I have slowed thinking. I’m always negative and even when I try to be postive I can’t go through a whole day with out being stressed. I have social anxiety as well and I have random panic attack like symptoms where I can’t sit still and I chomp my teeth or nibble on my fingers in my mouth as in a scared way it’s like I live in fear and I get startled very easy... I find my self also inhaleing a lot of air like constantly gasping and inhaling large amounts of air at once. In public I get self conscious most of the time and every time I speak it’s like my voice is quiet and doesn’t come out all the way it’s like it stops once my face and I’m not sure if it’s because I over think on how to say stuff and how I sound is the reason why instead of just doing it or saying it. Sometimes I’ll be talking to someone and I’ll picture them thinking and looking at me on how I look while talking to them. It’s lisk it’s always negative thoughts and it’s all judgment towards my self. I dwell on certain things and beat my self up for no reason. Also I got very frustrated very very easy. Back to my thoughts I feel like I hear them out loud in my head it’s liek everything I think i hear it out loud. For example I can be sitting here and I can picture my self talking to you it’s like I’m planning a head almost and over analyzing. I have conversations with people for example if I get in an argument I can have these ranging conversations in my head with that person on me trying to defend my point. Or for an example i hit a switch and I’ll picture my dad yelling at my saying its too loud or something isn’t right it’s like I just from one thought to another but I can hear it very good, almost like I’m jumping ahead between past and future. I’m good when I’m distracted but once I get cough up in these thoughts it causes me a lot of stress it’s like these thoughts come out of no where. This happened to me 2 years ago but only when I would try to sleep and close my eyes and now it seems to happen when I’m awake. And i also noticed when this happens my eyes aren’t focused it’s like I’m detached from my self or it’s all in me and the only way I snap out is when I focus my eyes out words towards my surroundings. I’d appreciate it if you could get back to me. Thank you