How many times can you refresh your email in an hour befor it explodes or sends you some snarky automated message to get a life?

When T switched to teletherapy because of the pandemic he talked about how much more exhausting it is for him. In that conversation I brought up how much more needy I have been because of the isolation. I told T that while I appreciate his replies I do not feel entitled to replies between sessions or even that he read emails between sessions. T said how they helped him keep up with me between sessions because without them I can sometimes seem like I am jumping all over the place haphazardly. The following week T replied to one email and has not replied to any since. I am still really needy and sending a lot more than I usually would. This has been a super crappy week between issues with H, a sick cat and another one of our cats passing away. I told T if I needed a reply I would tell him and I haven’t said I needed a reply. I also know the “rule” is if I need a timely response or it is an emergency I need to call and I haven’t done that either.

I’m in a pretty bad space with depression and anxiety but neither are to a point I would classify them as an emergency that can’t wait until session Tuesday... it isn’t like I don’t know what he is going to say and I know he doesn’t have a magic wand. So... I have sent way too many emails this week (my judgement not his) and I am obsessively refreshing my email hoping for a reply. I’ve also binged on both the link he gave me that has some public info about him outside of work and another source. I did find out that he is doing some good self care this weekend and that made me happy/relieved for a bit.



Is anyone else getting super clingy with their T during this social isolation stuff?

Or it might be that I am getting close to opening up some BIG stuff with him that I haven’t worked on before...

Ugh. I hate being so needy.