Well, yes. He doesn't seem to value my own preferences, desires and needs when it comes to food and dieting. He dismisses them. Which makes me think he wants me to be fat and feeling less attractive. He knows that feeling heavy makes me feel less attractive. He knows this. Why doesn't he want me to feel attractive is my question? It's most upsetting to me that he is dismissing my needs, especially when I've been emphatic. I do get angry about it, but not openly to him. Today was the first time I expressed any amount of frustration to him by telling him he's of "no help" when I am trying to diet. I didn't go off on him, when I probably should have.
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