So............ I was taken by surprise... had no idea what was going on... just started feeling "gut wrenching unbearable pain".... and started saying the phrase "do you understand"... every other senctence...

This alter... is the "collector" of all the bad, terrbile, demeaning things said to us.... during our marriage... by my husband... by my Mom.. by my Dad.. by my sister...

and when she is in control.. because of co-consiousness.. we almost double over in pain....

We want to cover our ears... anything to block out the words... anything... just anything..

We "feel" the pain... of our ex-husband... slapping our ear.. forcing air - the breaking of our eardrum.... the loss of hearing...
we hear him say "you think.. you think... who the "hxx" told you that you could think"...

That is what she brings to us... pain... pain... pain....

We hear... how... we ruined his life... how.. we are less than dirt..

we hear... how when we went into be induced for labor.. that when we fell.... "you whale... you whale ... you got yourself down there - you can get yourself up"...

whale... that is.. us... when we were 9 months plus pregnant...

we feel the kicks... and the words... you are worthless... worthless.. worthless....

and we hear the words... you contaminate... everyone with your being... you should kill yourself and do the world a favor....

yes,, she tells us "rid the world of an evil contaminat" get rid of us...

so... I haven't a clue right now... how to help us....

we are in unbearable pain.... just... unbelievable..

so if anyone has any kind words for her...

it would greatly help...