Hello Makedonska kora: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your second post. Welcome to Psych Central.
Along with the Depression forum, the Anxiety, Panic & Phobia's forum, here on PC, may be of interest to you. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/anxie...c-and-phobias/

We here on PC cannot offer mental health diagnoses. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't really suggest anything with regard to what may be causing all of the difficulties you describe in your post. For this would likely need to seek the services of a mental health professional... perhaps a psychologist or a mental health therapist. (Perhaps other PC members may have some thoughts they'll wish to share, though.)

Here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, 2 on the subject of depression and 1 on anxiety disorders all by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D.:

Depression: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

Living with Depression: A Guide for Coping with Depressive Feelings | Psych Central

Anxiety Disorders: Symptoms, Types & Treatments | Psych Central

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.