I feel my relationship with my counselor, who isn't a therapist, has become a bit weird. I like her and we have good chats but more as colleagues or as acquaintances than as client and counselor.

I'm within a strange situation as my counselor knows I need proper therapy, I've brought it up, but at the same time she can't do anything about it. She's not in a position to make decisions about my care that goes beyond my contact with her.

If she would bring up that I need therapy when we both already know the facility can't offer it, her manager would most probably tell my counselor to end our contact and that would leave me with huge problems as I then also lose my sick leave and my doctor. I live in Sweden and we don't have a referall system and no public facilities offer longer therapies which is what I need.

Anyway, my counselor shares a lot about herself, and we talk about psychiatry in general. She knows about my issues as I've written them down but she never brings anything up or asks about them. I think she kind of hesitates as she knows I know much about therapy and she perhaps feel she can't talk about my issues in a professional way and by that she doesn't care to bring them up.

I don't know what to do as I can't just leave as there are no other options and I don't want to lose my counselor abruptly by filing a complaint about not getting the care I need.

At the same time it feels strange seeing her as we don't really work on my issues and this goes on month after month. I'm convinced she wants me well but it's also a fragile situation as I don't know when or if one of her managers suddenly will put an end to our contact.

I find it strange she can't talk about my issues in a more simple way either, just listen and comment even if she can't work with me on a therapeutic level. I don't know if she hesitates about it because she knows what I want and that I need a therapeutic conversation and she can't offer of that or if it's because of something else.

As she kind of helps me from getting shut out from the facility I don't want to question her too much as I know she wants well.

By that, this is not a "go talk to your therapist" or a "look for support groups" situation but I want empathy and a discussion around this and how my counselor acts.