havent got my clozapine in the mail today. Hopefully I get it tomorrow. I have some for tonight. I'm still feeling paranoid. Very paranoid. I'm not looking for a fight. I'm just hurt... and no one understands my circumstance and what I'm going through. I'm angry... pissed... tired of people lying to me and acting like they care but they don't. Lies when people say they care. I try opening up and it bites me in the ***... it always ****ing does.