Hi Sarah,
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. . . I want empathy and a discussion around this and how my counselor acts.
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Here, in this thread anyway, hopefully we can give some of that to you. If not, people are frustrating sometimes, that’s for sure. Including institutions and counselors!
As you know, I have tried to get help for my issues, including trying to get some good definitions of what they were, and they didn’t have anything that helped much and it made things worse in some instances. So, I do not think there is such a thing as a proper therapy for some issues (yet). Despite what their books and other recommendations say. So – then what?
Can you say more about how you feel your relationship has become weird? Are you feeling frustrated that she can’t “get” for you the care you feel you need?
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I don't know what to do as I can't just leave as there are no other options and I don't want to lose my counselor abruptly by filing a complaint about not getting the care I need.
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Is this perhaps the crux of things feeling weird, or at least conflicted for you?
How are you with relationships in general? Is that perhaps one of your issues? If it is, then perhaps she is trying her best to relate to you person-to-person despite your issues. Since, in my experience, there isn’t any reliably good therapy for that in some instances, despite what “they” say and write.
Maybe she hopes this relationship will give you some experience in day-to-day things, which can help you in your regular life, too?
Would it help the weirdness if you mentioned to your counselor that you are still finding this situation very frustrating?
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At the same time it feels strange seeing her as we don't really work on my issues and this goes on month after month. . .
I find it strange she can't talk about my issues in a more simple way either, just listen and comment even if she can't work with me on a therapeutic level. I don't know if she hesitates about it because she knows what I want and that I need a therapeutic conversation and she can't offer of that or if it's because of something else.
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In my view, her reasons are her reasons, even if they seem strange to you. An important aspect of relationships I think I have learned somewhat, finally, is – other people are other people. They are who they are. They do what they do, for their own reasons that are often not in my control and not really my business, except maybe to try to understand them, in order to make my life and the relationship easier.
Yes, she knows you want and need something else and, yes, she can’t offer that – so she offers and does what she does. You still want and need something else – she can’t give it. Frustrating, again, but she can’t give what she can’t give. It is easier, in my experience, just to try to accept that kind of thing. Strange, to you, maybe? To her, probably not, even if you don’t understand why she is and does the things she does.
Hope this helps and is in the ballpark of what you asked for.