I didn't know what to say so took some time to reply but want you to know you're not alone at all. I think self love is a really hard thing to achieve and many of us spend a lot of time beating ourselves up and thinking we're not worthy people. It sucks to feel that way but I don't think it's uncommon

I wish I had some advice but as a fellow sufferer of this I'm still trying to work it out myself. I hope you manage to find a way to feel better about yourself