Thanks everyone. Things went really well. T was pretty unfiltered/confrontational (not three right word but best I can find) but it still felt incredible supportive.
I have lots to think about before next week.
We didn’t talk much about my feeling afraid he was angry with me other than to validate what I was already telling myself.
Talked about the cat I lost, H, a little about my son back in the good days... flowers, cars and self care.