Hi all. This is my first time posting and I have to admit I am doing it half drunk. I struggle with shifts in moods even after 15 years of meds. I am going through a depression but I feel myself taking a big upswing and I have to admit I want it to come. A little psychosis and a hospital although horrifying seem better than dredging through another one of these episodes. But alas I can't because I have two teens and a husband that need me happy and whole. I have to hold it together yet again when all I want to do is let the dandelions fly. I know you all understand and I am sorry for venting with no question. I just needed to say it and let it fall from my fingertips. Thanks for listening and thank you for sharing yourselves in this forumn.