Welcome MamaBear4! I get what you are saying. No one wants to continue on a long path of depression or even major league "blah" feelings.

I'm going to write something that I probably shouldn't, but it is based on my experiences with such a desire as you express. Rather than aim for total manic destruction, have you ever thought about aiming higher than stable, but...not too very high. My psychiatrist knows I've spent a rather large percentage of my life "riding just below maximum speed" before reaching full blown. And I like it pretty well. Unlike for others, when I've reached full blown mania, it gets bad and ugly and almost always equals hospitalization, some level of eventual trauma, or other bad news.

My psychiatrist doesn't wish to over-medicate me, if he doesn't have to. However, a little control is necessary. I can sometimes have hypomanic periods on a little extra medications. If I can keep it from skyrocketing, I can prevent eventual plummeting in the opposite direction.