So I've been out of it for a while. I thought I was updating regularly oh well. I'm sorry guys. I really do mean to be an active member of the forum. It's taking me all day just to read the check in post. My concentration is shot. My new pdoc got frustrated with me. I was kept on the same meds of course because I'm only been on my meds for about two weeks but I'm not seeing him for three months. I'm not okay with that. As the appointment sinks it I realize I can't do this like this for 3 months. I told him I was getting paranoid again. I can't deal with that much fear. This always happens around re-certification. I want to just cry. I tried really really hard to concentrate I did. H usually "goes" with me but he didn't because of a communication issue. between us. I'm ****ing up all over the place. I don't want to continue to feel stupid. I don't know what to do. I was holding hope that he could help me but I couldn't get the words out, understand him, or explain myself. I really do like the guy because he makes me stay serious. Someone please tell me three months isn't that long. My dad made a joke today that someone called me smart and he set them straight. I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess just an update for anyone who Is interested.