I would like to know if anyone else feels as though they have been wrongfully diagnosed with bipolar and how the label of it has affected there life?
In my personal experience no matter if I'm warranted to be upset, sad or anger and even sometimes happy at things that anyone would feel the conclusion and explanation people seem to have is oh you're bipolar.
I have a number of examples I would like to share. I am a long time survivor of domestic abuse, family abuse, physically, verbally and even sexually. I have never been given an opportunity to speak much about things. I also have been officially diagnosed with Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety, Agoraphobia & Panic Disorder. I am currently seeking input and diagnoses for PTSD because i have daily flashbacks of childhood abuse and even more current situations. I am also seeking diagnosis for autism spectrum, I have taking various quizzes along side even ordering physical books that resonate with me and describe me.
What I have noticed with the bipolar label being thrown on me is that anytime I feel anyway whether there is validity or a reason it gets unacknowledged and chalked up as I'm bipolar. this hurts my feelings because I've grown up in an environment that abuse is also chalked up and I'm told I'm only at fault and no one else is.
My family has hurt me a lot through out my life, My grandfather was very violent towards me through childhood and even adulthood, I have specific memories of being backed into closets getting the snot beat out of me, as a teen he pulled a knife on me and threatened to kill me on my 16th birthday and I have never celebrated a birthday since then. as an adult he has also threatened me and over 2 years ago i have made a decision that for majority of anything that I don't want to be involved with family if they are unwilling to see they are a problem and chalk me up as an issue. i sometimes have to visit my grandfather when i see my grandma who is sick and old and i love her very much.
despite these situations if i am angry, sad or hurt i am told i am bipolar and the validity of my pain is discredited.
I've dealt with various physical abuse from multiple family members. As well as people being verbally abuse, I've been told to kill myself by my own family. I'm adopted and this hurts my feelings because i feel that both of my family's don't love me. Despite this I am told i am bipolar.
I have dealt with sexual abuse as a kid from family members and i have vivid memories of watching extreme rape porn and have also been involved with incest. This has ruined sex and relationships with me and i legit self harmed and wanted to commit suicide when losing my virginity as a teen. If i am ever hurt about these things and how i cannot connect in adult relationships with women or i am angry i am labeled bipolar.
My family also refuses to understand my anxiety disorders, somedays i am not talkative and they treat me as if i am purposely being malicious towards them and do not consider my 4 diagnosed anxiety disorders. they become violent towards me but i am made to seem like i am the aggressor. For the past 2 years or so i have had no contact with majority of my family, i sometimes visit my sick grandmother. Despite a pandemic and my issues noone has called to say they love me or ask how i am or contact me. If i am upset, frustrated or angry I am labelled bipolar.
Sometimes it can be difficult to express myself and i know a lot of people not just me can be better at expressing there hurt. Personally i feel as a male that i am not acknowledged and it is also difficult to talk about sexual abuse without judgment. When i was a teen i was forced to go out in public and wear women's clothing and that is what started social anxiety for me and another time i died inside. I feel that people don't want to hear these things because it makes them uncomfortable but if i become sad, frustrated or angry i am labeled bipolar. I feel that as a male i am often conditioned to only express myself through anger but if i say how i really feel its often completely ignored.
I also deal with quite a few medical issues that don't get taken into consideration and i don't have a support system or people that have my back.
I'm curious if anyone else feels like a label hinders or invalidates their experiences and if people are unwilling to see anything else as a problem and just make them out to be wrong. I am so sorry for anyone who has been diagnosed with bipolar whether they actually do have it or not. I'm sorry that people can be nasty towards you but if you become angry, sad, frustrated its made to be your fault. I feel just as defenseless as i was as a kid that if i stand up for myself things only get worse.
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