I'm making my list of positives and negatives. The positives list is longer, but the negatives list has some strong deterrents and deal breaking issues. I am speaking with my therapist today.

What's difficult to discern: am I unhappy right now because of the issues with my husband, or am I unhappy right now because I haven't seen a single friend in over two months and because of the pandemic? It's probably both, but the pandemic has made things feel far worse. This is really awful. I cannot wait to get back to normalcy.