FluffyPuppy, I know that trust issues are very difficult issues. I have had some major ones in my life, too. I do want to say that there ARE people out there that are trustworthy. There are. It's a shame that it can sometimes take a while to either find them and/or allow yourself to trust them. I can see how discouraging it's been for you with therapists and psychiatrists. Please don't totally give up on those professions. Often we must keep looking for good fits. Even if it takes many searches.