Rive, thanks. Looking back now it's obvious we were a bad therapist-client match. Maybe she can't stand people like me, or I remind her of someone, or she's just moody and hot tempered but she triggered me often, which was a source of pain.

I'm trying something different this time. My new therapist is a MSW LCSW (Master of Social Work, Licensed Clinical Social Worker). Hopefully she'll be better for me.