I want her to show me maximum sympathy! I want her to make me tea, to let me sob on her shoulder. I want her heart to break because of my internal pain and life hardship! I want her to rescue me and soothe me and love me with all her heart.

Except I couldn't tolerate any of that behaviour. I am repulsed when she makes moves of this nature. I would like to accept empathy and care, to hold things lightly and to allow love to happen. Today, she told me that I am cold hearted. I want to be made of warmth, but I am not.