I agree divorce is hard. Especially with kids. But babe you have to do what is best for you. Happy wife equals happy life. So do what you need to do. Sometimes the hardest path reaps the greatest reward. Lean on a counselor to help you through. My husband and I are going through a trial separation instead of going straight to divorce. Google trial separation. It’s easier to slowly peal the bandaid off instead of ripping it off, in my opinion.