Hi Sorry to hear you are having a rough time. I feel shame a lot, it makes me not be able to make eye contact or speak loudly and clearly. It can be really hard to talk about traumatic childhood events, it maybe more useful to talk about and explore the feeling of shame? Like how you feel it in your body.

Also, I know it’s so hard to make ourselves believe it, but whatever happened in your childhood was not your fault. A child can’t be held responsible for these things. I blame myself a lot and have to remind myself of that.