Feeling defeated today. Maybe my PTSD getting the best of me. I feel so helpless against anything she says. I just can't talk to her. She seems so much happier since I stopped telling her my real feelings. Then if she ever brings up my feelings or thoughts, it's like she's relieved when I say I'm fine. She has been ranting on me for a couple weeks. She won't let me get a word in. I finally decided the other morning to just say something to shut her up for a little while. I told her, sorry if I made you feel that way. I didn't own up to actually doing anything wrong because I don't think I did. Plus, she doesn't want to hear my side any ways, which I don't want to give her as well because it just starts another fight.

Just emoting here since I have no outlet with her. I have friends and therapist I talk to as well, but this is quick and easy.