Feeling super good after the 16km walk (22 thousand steps)!

I was mad at my mom and her friends cuz of the drama subjection and walked ahead of them all the way home.

But I can't be mad. I can't waste time being mad - It will get me no where. I'm glad my mom had fun with their friends but they were saying "He's heard worse" and a woman said "Just because he's heard worse, doesn't mean that it's ok" (To make such sexual comments often) and it's true. As I was walking away, that woman said "Thanks for putting up with us - We love you" after I gave my mom a hug and walked away.

I'm mad that my mom is now keeping my 10k+ dollars but I can't get mad about money - Although it is really controlling.. Like how can I be independent? I have to figure that out. My mom is going to be working 12 hour days or something so it's much worse for her - And she's cooking the dinners etc.

Some of what the "soldiers" said to me about my identity is true. Idk how I manage to hear the perfect things in my life at the right time.. Seems suspicious..

I was walking across the road and I get pissed at cars revving their engines and making turns exactly where I think they're going to go.. It's like they do it to piss me off.. I saw that guy yesterday and I should have said "You better leave me alone". He seems like such an idiot too.

I'm drinking a chamomile tea and might take 5mg of diazepam. I only took two this week. I'm taking less and less - I couldn't do that with alprazolam because the half life was too short. It's pretty easy to taper with diazepam.

I haven't decided what I wanted to do today but at the end I'll take a zopiclone and go to sleep, wake up and it will be a much better day. I refilled my meds and my Invega injection is now back to every 3 weeks instead of 4.