I received communication from extended family who lives closer. My Grandma is struggling to make the decision to live or die. She doesn't want to be blind and she has heart, kidney and fluid issues. I want to see her one more time but due to this dumb virus, I'm worried. It's starting to affect my mood more, on top of everything else. I'm swamped, I don't know what I want in life and feeling only semi-safe. I"m scared for a lot of reasons and I feel like I need more time with T to digest it all. Will Thursday come faster, PLEASE! Thursday is when I see my T.