Sorry you are going through this. After only a year or so. That is tough. I wish relationships weren't so damn tough. They should be enjoyable most of the time with some bumps here and there. Not so much high and low chaos. I wish people would want to change for themselves and for their mates as well. If we all went away to better ourselves all the time we probably wouldn't need to do so much work together. It would probably be mostly enjoyment when we are together.