HUGS @the walls I'm sorry you are struggling so much. UGH. Sorry about the sui. thoughts on top of it. That just makes it 100 times worse. I know it feels like it won't get better, that was me, last week, but I got through it and I know you can too. Keep talking here. You are among friends. If you do SH just try to be safe okay? Hang in there. If you don't feel like you can stay safe, please go to the hospital. HUGS Kit