So I think I'm going to quit seeing Pastor T and I think I might quit seeing regular T. I don't seem to be getting a lot out of either one right now. I feel like I've gone pretty far with Pastor T but now he's pushing me to make new/more friends and stuff like that, and all I care about is that my suicidal thoughts are manageable and I don't end up back in the hospital. I guess our goals aren't aligned.


I'm thinking of quitting regular T too. I'm not sure she's that helpful. But I don't know that I should quit both of them, might be an impulse on my part, some sort of impulse that I'm not recognizing as an impulse. Maybe a self destructive impulse. IDK. But I just don't feel like I have that much to talk about. And Pastor T is just getting on my nerves honestly.

I'm thinking of sending an email to Pastor T. What do I say? Do I just say, Peace Out. I'm done. Or what? I mean, he's done some good with me, but I think he's outgrown his usefulness. I don't want to say that because that sounds mean. I just don't want to have to keep memorizing Bible verses and practice recognizing my thoughts and stuff like that. It just feels like it's not important to my mental health.


What do I say everyone? I'm not necessarily keen on saying it in session. I did that with the T that I saw for 4 sessions and it was a disaster. I don't know why I thought we needed a closure session.