If you do feel like you're taking it personally, gently remind yourself of the other reasons they may have left. It is hard to overcome long held beliefs, so be gentle and kind to yourself in the process.

Losing a friend (whether on line or face to face) involves a loss and there is bound to be some sadness and grief involved. Even if it hurts it is important to accept those feelings and find helpful ways to cope with them.

It is nice you can reach out to the community to seek a little warmth. I think that is a good step forward