I'm having quite a really bad time because of my environment and not being able to focus or relax.

I wish I could take 2mg of etizolam two evenings per week. But I'm already on enough GABA and hypnotic chems.

I'm just spiritually drained by my mom and sister and the drama. I don't want to live with them.

I'm gonna call my therapist tomorrow and make an appointment to see if I can work part time, go to school with my disability and get an apartment or something so I can be alone and get treated with an addictions counsellor, psychiatrist, doctor, therapist/psychologist, independent living counsellor, etc... To get on the right track..

My mom will have to move away because she needs my money. If this can't happen, I'll just be sitting in purgatory so they can get on with their lives and I sit mindlessly unhappy and zoned out, useless and doing nothing.