Dear Deilla, Hug, hug, hug! You are so obviously a good person! Your mother planted a recording in you long ago, probably when you were little. It's very hard to remove it, if it's even possible. And she's still doing a number on you, as the expression goes. Maybe you could brush up on some of the CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) positive comebacks to those inner critic statements. I realize, though, that sometimes we just have bad days & nothing seems to work. I'm wishing you happier feelings, dear friend! Hugs & love to you!!