Dear DechanDawa, It sounds like you're emotionally exhausted. So your emotions can't handle it all, just too overwhelming. And I think it helps sometimes to have a good cry & let it all out, all that burden, trying to hold it together. It's sad to hear you've been suffering like this. You are such a wonderful helper for others! I hope you're able to find a doctor or clinic that can help you. Hugs & love to you!!