I really second and adore @Omers advice on this post! Also, I totally agree with @MissUdy post in reply. Maybe slowly breaching your thoughts with T about what you really want to talk about by first talking in depth about shame will help. Let your T know that you want to open up and give him the whole picture, but the shame you feel is preventing you from doing so. Ask him to talk about the feeling of shame with you. As a therapist I'm sure he is well versed in that feeling. Maybe spending a session on shame will help you open that door 🚪 a little more to be able to walk through it and let out what you are holding in. A slow steady pace is always okay to take! Sometimes exploring the feelings around what you are holding in, but can't let out, is just as important to talk about and ends up being the right combination to unlock 🔑 those inner held thoughts/memories.

Thank you for sharing your honesty! I have been there and still carry shame myself. You really hit the nail on ths head when it comes to being able to explain feeling shame! I always have so much trouble just trying to explain that I have shame! A++ for your explanation alone. I wish your next few sessions with your T are more fruitful! You got this! 💕