Yeah I went for a run and then talked to this person and I didn't feel like talking. I'm very confused about everything and took on too many responsibilities for myself. I'm too hard on myself.

I drank chamomile tea, took half a diazepam and a half of an olanzepine.

I feel a bit better - I put on my pajamas and I'm gonna do something quietly isolated from the world.

I need to stop caring about what other people think and trying to prove myself.