You are fine, it’s a tough time. It’s understandable. It’s been going on too long

Personally if I didn’t have proper standard clinical diagnosis. I’d not touch any meds. Why are they even prescribing it? I’d try to get proper diagnosis. Maybe that’s why these meds make you sick, they aren’t proper meds for you

I am sorry I even brought up my husband as an example, I was just saying that certain anti depression meds work for other conditions. I didn’t know you don’t have a diagnosis. This is someone with true clinical diagnosis at a young age and repeatedly re-evaluated an re diagnosed several times in adult life by different teams of professionals. I mean his Tourette’s is visible and audible and his OCD is with visible observable obvious compulsions etc these things are obvious and could be bothersome ON meds, but he wouldn’t be able to work if he was off meds.

It’s not that he finds them helpful he NEEDS to be on them. My husband is supervisor RN in charge of a large hospital unit, no way he’d be ok without meds in this kind of job. Many people need to be on meds..

It’s like saying it’s “helpful” for one legged man to wear a prosthesis. He has to have it so he can walk. Or a person who can barely see its “helpful” to have glasses, he will run into a poll without them! I think we are just talking about different things. People with clinical diagnosis/disorder/illness/syndrome versus people needing occasional help. Not the same thing

If you want medication just for spikes of anxiety, some take Xanax which is highly addictive. And when people are going through something very stressful, they are sometimes prescribed lorazepam. I know that people who go through serious cancer treatment/chemo are often prescribed lorazepam, not just for sleep but for managing stress with cancer treatment. It’s not addictive and people come off it when it’s not needed anymore. Maybe that would work for you

This is a lonely time. Not easy.

You know some meetups have virtual gatherings and virtual book clubs/discussion. Or if you don’t find any fun ones, you can organize your own. I organize a book club through meetups, it’s a small group of women. I don’t want to do virtual so it’s on hold until pandemics are out but many people want virtual stuff. Join “girly book club”, they do virtual get togethers now during pandemics. I’d absolutely try that. Then you continue face to face when pandemics are over. It will be over one day