I just got off the phone with my sister. She was a HUGE help. It is sooooo cathartic to talk with a close family member about this.
She had a lot of helpful things to say, and I have much to think about. I told her that I am undecided right now, but that I could see myself being pushed past the tipping point if he yelled at me even just one more time. I told her I may not have the patience to go through therapy with him at that point. I am about 65% out of the relationship (meaning divorce is on the horizon at some point) and about 35% still in. Roughly those percentages. Weird thing... my husband is the one who taught me how to measure things in percentages. He gives me his pain level in percentages, and the improvement of pain level in percentages.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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